背靠背

on everything

Sunkist's back, in 12 days

graduation, in 21 days

Leaving home, in less than 2 months

it's not what i've expected

it doesn't go as i except

i never know it's so hard for me to fit in all these situations

it's harder when u're closer

closer to the day my Sunkist's coming back

it's harder and harder

u wish he's here with you RIGHT NOW

u want to go to the airport and wait for 12 days there

only for seeing him walk out of the arrival gate

and jumping on him

releasing the emotions u've hidden for this whole year

closer to the day i graduate from college

leaving the campus which has embraced you for these four years

it's hard

hard to believe that soon i'm not part of this picture anymore

hard to undrstand why it ends so soon when it just started

it's harder

harder to even think of saying goodbyes to all the people i met here and the ones i just met

and suddenly,

BOOM

i'm not going to be around here anymore

What's the f*cking hell wrong with it?

and then colser to my departure

i'm leaving home in August,

2 months still

but, again

BOOM

it will go fast

and on 8/1

u hope the day last forever

it feels complicated

don't want to leave home

don't want to leave mum

but anticipating to explore the world

looking forward to creating my own world

having my career building up

it's about making choices, give and take

this comporary leave will lead to having great life with my own family in the future

then i have to take the challenge

but somehow, it's hard to imagine life away from home

when u're closer to being a real TA, already gained some experiences

u found it even harder to be a good Chinese teacher

while u believe u can, and u know u will

as it's getting harder and harder, i'm more and more into it

harder while u're deep in it

countdown

on my last undergrad semester

on my internship as a Chinese intern TA

on walking towards my goals

and

on the ends of the so damn-it rainny days

Sunkist's coming back, so does sunshine

Hang in there, Kiwie.

3parties, 送舊 hanging out dinner and 謝師宴

我的party裝備都通通搬出來了  置裝done!

but 2 teahching tryouts

got works to do!

i'm always good at teaching!

no worries!

"When I miss you, I look up the sky. By linking all stars together, I see your face. " June 4th, 2010