背靠背

This time, I'm leaving, never turning back.

I don't wanna leave, nor give up on it,

but somehow was forced to, so I decided to quit.

Yea, probably ppl like me, like us,  need to live under spot light,

you're right.

I was just expecting a bit more than this, a bit respect

but somehow no one really cares.

not trying to complain or what,

just there are so many other things which deseve more of my time and attention,

so I don't care anymore.

Hornets lost today, were cruised by the Nuggets.

Nevermind, they'll be okay, next game or games after next game, at least I always believe in.

sometimes, somehow, I feel I'm the strangest or the most eccentric individual in this world. 

Seems never fit in any system or any group in this world.

sometimes contradictory

sometimes straightforward

sometimes extremely innocent nearly foolish

sometimes sophisticated

like being low but sometimes need a bit attention

like being free but sometimes need to feel be needed

like volleyball, basketball and lots of sports, but never be good at any of them

is that a bad thing that I can never fit in any part of the world?

who knows?

but i know that one thing is good

the only thing I can be good at －

being myself －

I'm sure that's a good thing.

no one can be always strong and brave and independent

never

so that's why there's always someone out there able to guard your back, the weakest part of everyone unless you're Achilles: p

sooner or later that person will appear in your life

at least I always believe that

while mum kept reminding me that don't give ur heart to someone, don't believe in other ppl even though you feel they worth ur trust,

I know she's trying to protect me, she knows her daughter deserves some guy who really understands her daughter and cares about her.

yet, things like this, friendship, or relationship, are all about feeling.You feel someone is worth your trust and heart, then just believe, after thinking. (yea, i'm not stupid at all, i know how to think.)

Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.

Was born to believe, remember?

Belongingness is not about other people, 

is about oursleves, myself and yourself

and probably the one who has your back.

last but not least

Thanks, you two.

Except my mum, you two are the only ppl who I feel you really care.

Thank you, I don't know if you really care, but I feel you do. Been knowing each other since the first yr, but this is the first time I really think you're a frnd and a cute person.

and most important, of course, u, the only person in the world calling me Kiwi. You know what I'm thanking for though you don't think I need to thank you. That's me, always appreciate what I've got in life. And It's your pleasure, don't you know?