背靠背

it was the last night before you went back

did not cry like a baby,

but just couldn't help it

hard

it was the first morning you weren't waiting at my door since we satrted dating

I looked at the bench you've sitted for 22 days

in the sunshine, it's beautiful,

i smiled, with hope

still,

not easy

only had 3-hr sleep

fell asleep at 2 and woke up at 5am

got class to go at 9

did not fall asleep during class

see, I'm good, and brave

did not cry for the entire morning

but,

i cannot lie to myself

i need time to switch back to the mode "on my own"

even though our hearts stay as one still

we're just being in different places,

the states, and here in Taiwan

just woke up from afternoon nap

at the moment the alarm rang,

i thought it was another morning which i could see you downstairs

going to class with me, reminding me to bring my text book, and so,

but then i saw the picture at my bedside

my eyes got wet again

he's gone

not forever

just for a few months

but he's gone anyway

shouldn't have typed this here

not going to make you worry

but on the first day on my own in our relationship

I got lost,

but just for today,

or probably a few more days

cus u know I'm brave,

I've been on my own for 20 years,

just one more year, and it will be over

some road u are lucky enough to walk with your beloved partner

but some road you have to walk alone

towards the same future with similar dreams

a brighter future

not easy

much harder than i thought

but it's our story

and not everything in life is easy

we grow because of the hard ones

like this

so it's our story

it just started and not going to end soon

in fact, i rather believe it never ends.